Day One

Recently I've been doing a lot of wishing and lamenting.  "If only I could go back in time and warn myself of what would happen to me."  Show myself the 240+ pound prison I'd create.  Explain the hell of going from 247 to 212 and back up to 241 again.  Of course I know, just like everyone else with any grasp on reality, that wishing doesn't do shit.

This morning, however, another thought occurred to me, "What if I do nothing and in 5, 10, 15, 20 years I'm sitting at the same desk thinking, 'If only I could go back in time and warn myself of what MORE would happen to me.'"  If I do nothing, change nothing about my life, logic promises that things will only get worse.

So here I am, beyond ready for change.  Being accountable to myself, my husband, my family, my trainer, even my future kids hasn't gotten me to where I need to be.  So I'm trying something new.  I'm going to be accountable to cyberspace.  I'm going to put my life in print where numbers won't lie and strangers won't help me make excuses.  More than that, I hope to find support out here. 

As for today's plans- I'm looking at a 1400 calorie day filled with cleaning and painting the future nursery (time killer and motivational!).

Hey! I Have a Blog!

Hello there.  My name is Sarah and I'm a 26 year-old pastry chef working as a cake decorator.  I've been married since July 2007 and I live in Pittsburgh, PA.  Those are the basics. 

I've been thinking about starting a blog for a while now.  I follow a few friends' blogs and they seem to really love it, so I guess I'm giving it a try now, too.  I'm thinking that the two biggest themes of this blog will end up being weight loss (I'm at a horrifying 241) and conception (we've been trying since March).  Both are lonely subjects, but maybe with this blog they'll feel a little less so.

Currently the extent of my computer savvy-ness ends with emails and facebook, so please bear with me as I learn.